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Chaplin to Reed Lake

Chaplin to Reed Lake by temporallobe at Garmin Connect - Details

Weather: High of 8c (46.4 F) Strong wind all day.

Distance for today: 39.79 km (24.72 mi)

Total Distance to Date: 6082.25 kl (3789.51miles)

Song of the Day: Was not into music today. Just listening to Podcast's of various people

I must say today was hard. It was not the hardest day I have had running. It was not the worth weather. While I am sick I have been sicker during the past few months. I have had days with less sleep.

It still did not make the day any easier. On day's like today when I don't want to run, when I am stopping way to often to use the bathroom. When I am a phloem making machine. I play games with myself.

Very windy today. It was like running an extra 50 lbs

When I am having day's like this play a little game with myself. It starts when I get up. I say to myself " I am going to run for 10 minutes if I still want to stop then I will".

When the 10 minutes passes and I still want to stop I say "10 more minutes". I will also pick an object in the distance and tell myself I will run there and then take a brake. I will repeat the horizon as I go on.

The white stuff is salt. Not snow.

I did this for most of the run. I then start to think about how angry I was the first year or so after my injury. Being told what I can't do.

Running past Uren

When I was training for my first marathon less than a year after my TBI. People close to me, not all of them, told me I couldnt do it. This made me want it even more.

Cleared up a bit but still cold.

When I trained for the Ironman people told me I could not do it. My body was not made for it. I did not have the drive, I did not have the physical ability. That made me angry so I finished the Ironman.

Stunning sunset

Getting ready for the Run To Remember I had more people who believed in me. Yet now I had a larger responsibility. Now I had to believe in myself. I used that anger of all the people that did not believe in me, that thought I would not go back to school, live on my own, get married, get a job, run a marathon, do a triathlon, to get through today.

I don't know how healthy it is for me to get fuiled by anger. However tell me I can't do something. I will do it just to prove you wrong. Hell, just to piss you off.

I am getting my swagger back since my injury. So much was taken, everything was so hard. It was so hard. It is so hard. However look at this. Look what I am doing. Look at we can do.

So a very polite middle finger to those who never believed in me. Who talked behind my back, who set up roadblocks. Who thought I was all talk. What did you do today?

I know it's not healthy to be this angry. I don't know why I get angry when I get sick. I just want to scream about Brain Injury to anyone who will listen. I struggle some days when I wonder if anyone is noticing. I know they are, I know this is just the start.

Sometimes I want things so bad. I get so fixated on a goal and I just need to see it through. This is one of those times.

Tags: Brain, Braintrust, Canada, David, Injury, McGuire, Remember, Run, To, Traumatic

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Comment by E Driver-Dunckley on October 16, 2011 at 9:09am: I am in awe! a marathon a day! unbelievable! i can only handle about 1-2 per year! Keep it up!

Comment by David McGuire on October 14, 2011 at 1:38pm: Yea anjahlina that really was salt. There were chunks of it o the road. What I thought was funny was a near by factory with a "this area is monitored by security cameras" I guess salt theft is rampant in the area. :-)

Lee Ann I am not fast. I think your grandfather without the model T would be faster than me.

I get a quick break right now as we are off to a meetin with the Mayor of Swift Current then back to running.

Comment by Vega Lee Ann on October 14, 2011 at 12:44pm: Great post today Dave! Hope you feel better soon. Good for you for motivating yourself like this. Your dedication to your goal is amazing. Fun Fact: My 90 year old Grandfather grew up in Chaplin Sask and left there in a Model T Ford to drive all the way to BC in the 30's when he was 13. You're probably running about as fast as that vehicle right now lol! Take care :)

Comment by Anjahlina Siam on October 14, 2011 at 12:04pm: David, I think it is great that you fought so hard and you won! Running is really hard to do, too, I can't even run a block hardly. I like the pictures that you take of the places you see while you are running. You see some beautiful places. Was that really salt instead of snow? I was not good at running even when I was in High School, my eight year old sister could pass me up in races. So, please, run for me too. I will be walking and won't get to see nearly what you get to see!